I saw the light, and I was on my way.

Well, it's all over. Evita has treated me well. Very well. And oh how I will miss her and New Line.

We sold out the majority of our performances. The people just couldn't get enough of us, I guess. The kitty likes the fishy. :]
Every night was a new experience, a new energy, a new perspective. My friends and family loved it, which made me very glad. And many a stranger to me loved it as well. I'd say our Evita cast and crew are very proud of what we did this July. There was alot of heart and soul in this production. I couldn't have been more pleased to work with such a bold theatre company. It's really been a wonderful experience.

I'd like to apologize to those of you who've actually been reading my blogs. I'm terrible at keeping up with them. And I should have at least 20 more blogs than I do with the amount of time I've been logging the rehearsals and performances. I'm sorry for that, followers! I guess I was too wrapped up in the moment.

I'm experiencing serious withdrawls. For the first time in my life, I actually cried because I didn't want a show to be over. My dad asked me Saturday before our final show, if I was sad for it to be over with. And I told him I've never been more sad about a show ending. I don't know what kind of hypnosis you have me under, New Line, but it's very personal! You sure haven't seen the last of me, though. I'll be back for more auditions!

I really felt different at New Line. I never sensed any tension between anyone. There was never any competition. We were all so fun loving and such free spirits. All we wanted to do was make great theatre. Which we did, very well. I liked each and every person. I was always excited to be at rehearsal. I had a continuous smile this entire process. And it's been such a refreshing sensation.
I fell in love with theatre again. I don't know exactly made that happen, whether it was New Line's perspective or the fact that I was finally being challenged to be better on stage. I think I needed to finally stretch my wings. I needed to feel vulnerable onstage again. I've been too comfortable for too long. Honestly, I don't know what happened inside of me during these past 2 months, but I'm glad that it did. I've missed such personal theatre and all the wonderful feelings I get from creating beautiful moments for an audience. I think most of all, I felt appreciated as a performer at New Line. I needed all these new people in my life. I was certainly missing that spice before.

Well, that's all sweet and cute. But Evita is over, and now I have to go back to surviving. Living day to day like everyone else. And trying to defeat the early-20's curse of not knowing what the heck to do with my life. I have no solidity. Only oppurtunities and ideas. But that's my favorite part about life, I never know what's going to happen next. Thank goodness for spontenaity.

Thank you, Scott and my Evita castmates and crew for an extraordinary summer. I've really had the best of fun with all of you. Until next time!

And farewell blogger.com. You were interesting and always here to listen to my thoughts. I'm not quite sure if you were as satisfying as a fudge round. But you were a new experience and that's always neat.
I'm not sure I'm the girl for you, Blogger world. But know that I treasured our relationship for what is was. Don't be too heartbroken if you don't hear from me for a while. It's not you, it's me. I'm far too intricate for such an extroverted atmosphere. :]

Adios, descamisados. Te quiero!

T minus 10, 9, 8, 7....Evita blasts off!

The show has been sold out twice now! And as far as I can predict, we'll be sold out again this weekend. It's really been an incredible run of Evita. Everynight something changes just a little bit, to keep everyone on their toes. Nothing in the show changes persay, but the energy changes. And each performance we become a tighter cast, and we become Argentina a little bit more every day. And we fall in love with Eva like never before.

I'm so proud of this show. I think this is the first production I've been in in a long time that I've actually encouraged, pleaded, and begged people to come see. It's really exciting! It's a feeling I've missed. And I can't believe the turn out we've had of audience members! I haven't had more than two friends come to see me yet..but that's changing this weekend! I've got ALOT of friends coming to support me in Evita! And I think they'll be very surprised at the difference of performance at New Line of myself and all the other actors onstage than they've had in other productions at other venues. It's really a different feel, this musical. Evita is not your typical show. And I can't wait to see how surprised my loved ones are at the end of it this weekend.

And hellllllllllo! Did you watch the KDHX clip of "Two on the Aisle!?" that was so cool. We've been getting great reviews! And why shouldn't we! New Line has created a beautiful show that audience members really get caught up in. It's exhilirating.

I hope more than anything at the end of every performance that every person in the theatre is moved. Whether they've fallen in love with Eva, as the cast has. Or whether they question Eva's questionable rise to fame and fortune, like Che. I hope you cry. I hope you feel our pain. I hope you feel as if you are a part of Argentina's rise of the working-class. I hope you recognize the similarities of Evita with our current political and national issues. I hope you feel inspired after seeing Evita. And most of all, I hope you forget you're seeing a production on stage. There's nothing I love more than hearing my audience say that they forgot they were in a theatre; that they were really involved in the story, they became the storytellers as well.

I can't wait to see how this weekend goes. I've had butterflies in my stomach all month! I can't wait to laugh, to dance, and to sing for you all. And I can't wait to expose my heart and soul onstage. If you haven't seen Evita at New Line theatre yet, I strongly encourage you to get there quickly. You will not regret it.

For Argentina!!!

It's what I do! It's what I live for!

First weekend of performances down! And I couldn't be more pleased with how it's turned out. I'm so happy with what we've done with this show. Everyone adds just the right amount of spice to Evita and we heated up a very nice recipe, if you ask me. John and Taylor are rockin' it! Every night I wonder who's going to win in the end, Evita? or Che? Even though I already know. That's how involved we get onstage, though. We get so wrapped up in the story, sometimes we forget that we're telling the story. Every night we learn more about Eva, the woman who saved Argentina. And every night it gets harder to watch her die right in front of us.

My mom asked me last night, after seeing the show for the first time, "So what were you thinking about when you were crying onstage?" and I responded, "I'm crying because Eva is dieing, Mom. I really love her. And it's devastating that we're losing our saviour, and our friend." and she pulled me in a little closer to her and said, "No, really. What were you crying about."

For my mother and anyone else who may need help understanding why I love Eva so much, here's some answers. I believe in being the character, first and foremost. When I become Paola Rosales (the name I made up for my Argentine character) I am no longer Terrie Carolan. Not even a little bit. Sometimes I try to put a little bit of me into my characters, but this show was different.
There is nothing South American about me, so I couldn't contribute anything I had previously to Paola. With that being said...
Eva Peron changed the course of government and politics in Argentina, and gave hundreds of families help. Not only did she hand out money to the poor, and gave women voting rights, and gave so many people more than what they had before--she gave us something to believe in. (Like Obama gave everyone "hope.")The working class wasn't acknowledged by the government until Eva Duarte came along. And she was one of us. We are her descamisados. Which made her such a saviour in our eyes. She knew the struggles and hardships that came with being born into working class. And she wanted to help us, and she did. She may not have done everything the ethical-way, persay. But she got to the top, nonetheless, and she really did love us and want to change Argentina for the better.
I really hate to use this comparison, but think of it this way. Jesus died so that we could be saved, right? In a way, Eva went around helping people, spreading love, and in the end she died an untimely death. No she didn't heal anyone, or claim to be a saviour. But she saved us and broke the chains of the upper/middle class that ruled Argentina unfairly for decades. Didn't you cry when you watched Passion of the Christ? It's almost like that. We're watching Eva die, and we know that things will never be the same. Not only are we losing the woman who changed our country, we're losing our friend. And that's never easy.

I hope that the audience sees our love for Eva. We aren't crying because out of memory recall. If I was crying because my pet snake died last Friday, it just wouldn't work. You have to become part of the story. You have to feel what the people felt in 1950 when Eva reigned with Juan Peron. You have to understand what their lives were like, where they worked, where they ate, where they danced, how they moved, and how they thought. I truly want my audience to believe that I'm an Argentine. I work hard to support my family. I am a woman. I am Roman Catholic. And Eva Peron gave me hope.

I hope that helps, Mom. :]

This weekend really has been great. Thursday night was only a preview, but really it was a real show. I had real nervousness. So, it was definitely real! haha. I'm so happy to be a part of New Line's production. I haven't felt this great about a show in a while. I can't wait to see how tonight's show goes. And then next weekend and then next, and so on. I'm very excited for a new audience every night.

That sensation you get when you're walking out onstage, and you realize you can't turn back. Yeah..I really love that feeling. Being so exposed to an audience. It's make it or break it. Thrilling. It really really is.

And don't be afraid to dance along to our show in your seat. We really love enthusiastic audiences. :]

Moving right along!

We've blocked the whole show now! Woot! And next week and from then on, we'll be in the theatre! I can't believe how quickly it's all happened. I guess time really does fly when you're having fun :]

I have been introduced to the infamous "Millerogrophy." Or however you wanna spell it. And I will admit, it's interesting. I love the song "Money Kept Rollin' In" but I was very afraid of what exactly we'd be doing in it. And it wasn't that bad! I was really more nervous to find out what Millerogrophy was more than I should've been. I like the dance we do, even though I'm really stupid and can't count. So, I'll have to work really hard to impress you! but don't worry, I'll get it down, as will everyone else. And we'll live up to Scott's Millerogrophy. Promise!

I'm really starting to get into the life of Eva Peron, her story I mean. I understand the background and who she became and what she did for her country. But I decided I loved Eva Peron a couple weeks ago. I don't care if she was a complete biotch, she seemed to be a pretty cool lady to me. Because she was so real. It's funny that you mentioned that at rehearsal the other day, Scott. I was thinking it too! I'm still trying to find a medium between being a working class Argentine and the middle class Aristocrats. I don't like being mean to Eva, Scott. Can't we be working class all the time! haha. We're really trying to be mean in "Peron's Latest Flame!"

All I have to remember is keep my eyes as wide as I possibly can. Which isn't very big.

I still love all the songs just as much as I did the first time we sang through them. Singing them, dancing to them. I love all the sounds of this musical. I'm really glad I didn't base my judgement of Evita off of that terrible movie with Madonna. What fool I would've been!

We're about to start full run-thru's soon. And costumes. And using real wooden chairs. And having the band play with us. I'm getting excited! The show is so close. And I can't tell you how anxious I am to perform. It's ridiculous how much I get out of being on stage with other performers. It's the sensation I live for.

I only have one thought to share before I log off. I watched Out on the Town last night with Frank Sinatra and Gene Kelly and that hott tapper from Easter Parade. And my mind is completely boggled at how far away we've gotten from the classics. Movies are not made like that anymore. People are not talented like that anymore. And what for?! I'd much rather watch someone like Gene Kelly dance than watch Brad Pitt doing anything ordinary in a movie. And I'm much rather listen to Lena Horne sing rather than stupid Justin Beiber. And where are all the tap dancers on So You Think You Can Dance! All's I'm saying is, I think the entertainment industry has failed a bit in talent. I mean, c'mon. Where's the next Judy Garland? What happened to great classic films where people danced and fell in love singing to each other. It's a shame. That's my opinion. Do with it what you please. :]

Oh, yes. One more thing, in case my Dad is reading this. Happy Father's Day (on Sunday)! I love you! (That's me and him at the top there. :})

Well, Got Act One Down!

I'd just like to point out right now that I love this idea that, we the cast, are constantly a part of the story. I was a little confused by all the chair action, to be honest, Scott. But now I understand it! Of course, I didn't until you pointed it out to us the other day. But I really love the "movie theatre" theme. That when we're sitting in the chairs, not necessarily a part of the scene, we're still a part of the story! Because we're "watching" that scene on our movie screen. I hope the audience gets that. I think it's a really neat idea, and I'm really excited to see how the audience percieves it. Anyhoooooo...

Act I is completed, on to Act II. It is insane to me that we've done Act I in the matter of a week and a half. No. It's not insane. Actually, I love it! I wish all theatres moved this fast. It keeps me on my toes. Makes me really concentrate. And I don't have a chance to get bored or complacent. Long story short. I like the pace we're at.

Today we learned "Peron's Latest Flame," and it was really fun. Really difficult on the men's part, but really fun for the girls! Haha. I enjoy Robing's choreography. It's not too hard, which I love! because I'm not a dancer. But it's difficult enough that I have to pay really close attention. What am I talking about....I have to pay really close attention to everything. I'm just a little ADD. :}

Buffy the Vampire Slayer is on my television right now. A marathon. That is not in any kind of order. It's very confusing...

I'm interested to see what we do for Act II. I'm especially interested to see what happens in "Money Kept Rollin'." Oh, boy! I have a feeling we're going to be buzzing around like honey bees. That's a fast song. We can't possibly have little movement! That would just be too easy! And it'll be my real first treat of the reknowned "Millerogrophy." In all my excitement, I'm also nervous for it. Haha, but I'll blog ALL about it once it happens finally.

Did I mention that I love leaving work 45 mintues early to make it to rehearsal on time? :]
Except for that fact that no human being in Union all the way to Eureka comprehend a speed limit. Which makes me absolutely and unhealthily crazy. BUT. It's all forgotten once we start rehearsing.

Well, that's it for today, I guess. My departing words for this evening: TRUE BLOOD!!!!!!!! (season 3!!!!) right now. :]]]

So you think you can dance, dance, dance...dance.

It's been a couple weeks, sorry! I sort of forgot I was supposed to be logging my experiences. Too caught up enjoying them, I guess! :]
We've danced some and blocked some, and sang alot. And I'll tell ya, I'm really excited for how this show is going to turn out! The group numbers are really fun--lots of movement! And I can't believe how much I've retained dance wise. I am not a dancer. But I think I'm going to fool all of you with these mad dance skills I've gathered recently.
And I think last night, reviewing the dance all together for the first time since Sunday, we did pretty good! Either way, I'm excited. I seriously get so excited to go to rehearsal, and I can tell you that is a wonderful feeling. It's been a while, nice feeling. Hello again.
Scott, I don't really know what to tell people in my blog. I can't give away details or they'll know what to expect when they see the show! So, I suppose I'll just hand over all of my excitement to my blog viewers.
I can say I'm very intrigued to see how we pull off this show with chairs! And I really love Taylor's voice. Yes, I'm being openly creepy today. But really, I do. I really love everyone's voices. I really love being with all these new people and seeing their personalities behind the scenes. I've only ever known them from my audience seat. So, it's really interesting and exciting to be meeting the persons behind the characters now.
I laughed alot last night. Thank you, Zach and Eeyan and Dowdy. I do love that we can laugh and play, but get things done too. All in all, New Line, you have been a breath of fresh air that I've needed for a long, long time now. I'm so anxious to see what we do next!

Oh! New York was fun too, by the way. Not as thrilling as I had hoped it was going to be. But fun, nonetheless. I think I prefer the beach better. That's another thing I'm excited for, where my next trip will be! I'll take any ideas. I'd really like to visit Palau someday; they have jellyfish you can swim with! It's true. Look it up, I promise!

Stay tuned! I'll try to keep up with my blog for all of those who are reading it.

Greetings to my fellow humans

Well, I'm making my first blogging debut. I've never done this before. And to be honest with you, I'm absolutely terrified. Which is strange...I mean I can sit on Facebook hours upon hours so what's the diff? I always say I'll try something first and often a second time as well before I claim that I don't like it. So here I am blogosphere. I hope at the end of this I'll feel as if I eaten a fudge round. :]



And so my journey begins with New Line Theatre. And I couldn't be more excited! I've seen a few shows at New Line: HAIR, Forbidden Planet, and Spelling Bee. All of which I wanted to hop onstage and be a part of it all! Seriously, what fantastic performers. Which is why I can't wait to start working with all you strangers whom I've admired from my general admission seat for quite some time now. I've not been this anxious in a long, long time.



The essential facts: I'm not incredibly familiar with EVITA. In fact, if I may be so bold to admit, I've never seen it onstage. I've only seen the movie starring Madonna. In which, I wasn't blown away. In fact, I was sort of lost in a blend of what-the-hell-is-going-on-in-this-story and what colored M&M I just put in my mouth. Seriously, that movie was no good for my lack of focus on a Saturday night at 12:30. So if I didn't fall in love with the show, why did I want to be in the show you ask? Because I loved the music. And if nothing else will move a person, music will. And I really like what New Line adds to productions. Frankly, I wanted to see what kind of twists and turns would take place. And stage productions are always so different than the movies...hello! Grease?!



Anyhoo. My smile is still from ear to ear. I'm very excited to meet all of you and get to work! I'm rather anxiety-ridden, however, that I won't be able to experience our first rehearsal together. I'll be able to pick it up no problemo. I just freaking hate missing out on things. Seriously, I have never called in sick to work in my life (yet), and the only time I've ever missed school from being ill was when my doctor called my school and told them himself not to let me attend. Damnit. I never want to miss out on any kind of fun, or information. But I'll be in New York, which will be a first time experience for me. So, I'll be missing out on all the fun at New Line, but I won't be missing out on anything happening in NYC! Haha, my glass is always half full.

I'm not really sure what to talk about...I don't know any of you yet. So I can't talk about our relationships. And I haven't ever done EVITA, so I can't really say much about that either. Maybe I should tell you a bit about me, the newb to New Line.

Other than loving theatre, pasta, music from the 1920's, and strawberry milk there's not a whole lot to know about me. Well...that's a lie. There's alot to know about me, but nothing very important. I love travelling! I haven't done too much of it in my 21 years, but I can't get enough of new places and new things. I want to walk everywhere even if it's 13 miles. And I'm not kidding. I hate taxis and trains and busses. I wanna walk and absorb absolutely everything. Of my travels, I love any beach the best. I love the ocean; the tide can wash away anything you'd like to be rid of. Next, I love Chicago. There's just something about that place.
Oh, I'm also a science-freak. It's really the subject I've always been most drawn to next to drama. But, I guess I like it so much because it is life, literally. And understanding how our bodies work with food, chemicals, and the environment is incredible to me. Life is all about processes; cause and effect. Really, it's fascinating to me. Especially the environment! I'm the one who will harass you all day long about recycling and preserving water, cutting back on plastic bags, etc.
Most people have only one real passion in their lives. But I've found that I have several, and my parents tell me all the time how fortunate I am because of that. If one thing falls through in my life, I'll always have something else I'm crazy about to chase after. First comes theatre, then the environment, then biology, then pyschology. And I can always keep travelling and find out things about the world I'd never imagined before.

And if you were wondering, I was a cat in my past-life. Several times in a row, I do believe. I'm awfully curious, but incredibly self-sufficient, and almost too private sometimes. I'm perfect to cuddle with though! haha

Maybe I should have told you all about my theatre experience...but really I can write about that all day long. That's something you should see and consider yourself, though. I am a firm believer that actions will always overrule words. I can't wait to see what New Line has to offer me. I love a good challenge. And I freaking love singing and acting and dancing (most of which I normally do while driving). I can't believe how much I just confessed in this blog. Hmmm...alright, blogger.com, you weren't quite as tastey as chocolate, but just as enticing. So, there you have it. A little piece of me and a big piece of excitement! I look forward to getting to know all of you fellow actors. :]]]