I finally realized it was always you...Terrie?

Well, hi! I'm not sure if I know you...have we met before? I'm Lenora. I used to be Cry Baby's destiny. But now I'm Baldwin's. He's really good at kissing with tongue.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing here. There's this voice inside my head that keeps telling me what to do. It's like I can't even think for myself anymore!
I have a nifty suspicion that someone has stolen my identity. Terrie is her name...or at least that's what she claims. She talks alot and is always bossing me around. Everyone tells me I'm crazy for thinking she's there, but I know she is. She's reading my mind. I can't get away from her.

Normally I would only think about Cry Baby. But recently I've been really focused on Terrie. And Baldwin. My mind is just so full of so many things! Sometimes I can't keep up. Terrie tells me that we're friends, but I really don't know her. Other than she's a mind/palm reader. Which, is really neat! She's pretty. I think we look alot alike. And I'm pretty. So we're both pretty. Baldwin said so at the Anti-Cold War Picnic this weekend. We're so insanely in love!
I wonder if Cry Baby ever thinks of me...

Terrie says that Allison isn't so bad, I'm still not so sure though. She's says something about Taylor every so often, but I still have no idea what she's talking about. I don't know any of these people!

I used to only have 2 friends: Morning Glory and Biscuit. But about 2 months ago, I started noticing that more and more people were showing up in my head. Terrie was talking about so many friends that I didn't know I had! If you ask me, I think Terrie might have a mental disease. I figured that out when she wished out loud once that we could have polio WHILE we were AT the Anti-Polio Picnic!...
I really kind of like Terrie.
Everyone in Baltimore keeps telling me she's not real. Because apparently it's not 1954 anymore, according to Terrie. And she told me that we're all for integration! Who knew?! Baldwin tells me that it's not okay. But Terrie convinced me to kiss Dupree! Which was really fun! I only went along with it so easy at first, because I figured it would help me get closer to my beloved Cry Baby. After the first couple of times though, I couldn't resist Mr. Dupree W. Dupree any longer. I had no idea Drapes were so talented. I trusted Terrie with my whole heart and body after that. I love her alot now. I think we're going to be best friends for a long time! Until the Prepubescent Rehabilitation Center for Make-Believe-Pregnant Schizophrenics forces me to start taking those yucky medicines again.
Terrie says they just don't understand us. She says that people with sociological diseases are funny. She thinks I'm funny! We're always laughing together. Terrie makes me happy. She says that no one will ever know a love like our's. But hopefully Baldwin will. I'm so happy we're married now!

I think Terrie is a little jealous...because she keeps telling me that Cry Baby could still be the one. She could be right. We're open to possibilities!

Last night, Terrie made us a strawberry malt. And it was soooo wonderful! I'm glad we like to eat the same things. And I like how she does my hair. When Terrie first showed up in my head, she said that if she could decide what we looked like, I could decide what we think like. I wasn't sure about negotiating with the devil then, but I figured if Terrie was a zombie instead, then I would...so I did.

Terrie seems very pleased with our "work." I'm really not sure what work she's talking about. She keeps saying all these things about audiences and cast members and costumes. I just want to talk about my ant collection. But she will not stop blabbing.

Baldwin has the zircon I stole for Cry Baby on his left nipple. I was really surprised that he could do that. But I really kind of like it too. Terrie said something about him being gay. He doesn't seem any happier than us, so I'm not sure why she keeps saying that. She says alot of things I really don't understand. At least she's funny. She has that going for her, sort of..

Wellllll.....I don't really have anything left to say. I have to go away soon, Terrie says. So she gave me this keyboard thingy and told me to confess anything I had never told anyone ever before. I'm excited! I think she might be sending me to the moon finally. I just hope Baldwin gets to come too.
Oh yea! My confession...hmmmm..
I guess I need to confess that Morning Glory and Biscuit are actually Siamese twins. Neat, huh?! But they're so moody and they have a very wide torso. Terrie told me that's okay and to be nice to them anyway; everyone deserves to love and be loved.


I guess it was nice meeting all of you, whoever you are. Terrie is making me say good-bye now. So...bye! I'll wave to you from the moon! BYE!!!
With love,
Lenora

I had your baby...I had it dozens of times.

It's been a while since I've updated this old blogger of mine. Sorry 'bout that..I just get so wrapped up in a show! And if you've seen Cry Baby already, then you can understand why.

Cry Baby has really been a roller coaster of a production. Ever since our first rehearsal, I knew this was going to be alot of work. Not just finding Lenora, but being able to keep up the amount of energy necessary to make Cry Baby as exciting as it is. After hell week, I thought I was done for. My voice was shot, I was absolutely exhausted, and I didn't know how I was going to keep up with everyone onstage. But as always, once I see that audience out there I get silly with excitement and my adrenaline forms an endless amount of energy from only God knows where. I blog about this feeling for every New Line show, but really. It's something I crave. It's such a wonderful sensation to experience. Performance. I cannot stand to be without it.

So 9 performances down, with 3 more to go...and I'm not sure how to feel. Honestly, I'm exhausted. But I'm sort of addicted to all this endurance I've built up. And really I'm not ready to say good-bye to Lenora quite yet. Although, I get this strange feeling that she's not going to let me get away that easy. And she certainly isn't going to let Cry Baby get away either. Things'll get interesting come this Saturday, I'm sure. :)


It happens all the time, but every weekend that goes by Cry Baby gets even better. This show really has been a great time. I thoroughly enjoy spending time with my cast and crew in the theatre and out. I've had many a people say to me after Cry Baby that they can't believe I started off my New Line debut as Peron's mistress singing "Another Suitcase in Another Hall," and now here I am throwing myself around onstage actin' a fool as a cutesy crazy pants. I've come a long way as a performer. Something I'm not fully aware of until I'm told. And I'm so incredibly appreciative that I get to come to work everyday just to entertain people. It's a really great feeling to know that Lenora and I have made an impression. I love nothing more than to make people laugh.

I'm not sure if I'll be able to blog again before our show is officially over. So if I don't make it back in time, know that I love you all! and am very thankful for your support in my endeavors (I'm talkin' to you, Mom and Dad). Lenora sends her best!






I'm really gonna miss you, Cry Baby.